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I've had a natural inclination towards exploring the depths and outer limits of my own awareness since childhood. From a very young age I began having vivid lucid dreams after I saw an episode of a ghost busters cartoon in which one of the characters in a scary dream remembered to say "it's just a dream! it's just a dream!" in order to gain control over whatever it was causing him fear. I began remembering to say "it's just a dream" any time something would be causing me problems in a dream, and then I would realize "hey, it really is just a dream!" and I would then proceed to travel through time and have super powers and fly and attempt to collect dream world treasures like video game consoles and candy to bring back into my waking life from these otherworldly dimensions. In retrospect I see this as being the beginning of my realizing that there was a deeper level of self-awareness that I could take a step back into beyond whatever was happening in my immediate experience.
As a young child I was very preoccupied with and disturbed by the fact that everyone would some day die. It seemed incredibly cruel and absurd to me that this be true. I have a vivid memory of walking to my school bus to go home after I had just begun kindergarten, and as I looked around me at all of my laughing, playing peers all I could think was "don't they know they're all gonna die?" As macabre as this sounds, I know it was this fixation upon my own mortality which caused me to become more present to my experiences. I used to regularly create markers in time using my awareness. I would bring as much of my presence of awareness that I possibly could to a specific moment, and in those moments I remember feeling that I could travel through time in either direction. I believe now that what was occurring was that by calling as much of my awareness as possible into a given point in time, I was at the same time letting go of my identification with time, and instead resting in an awareness of the eternal now. Later on in my life I read the book Be Here Now by Ram Dass, and reading this book propelled me into what many would term a spiritual quest. I began studying Tibetan Buddhism and Jungian Dream Work, and seeking a remedy to the anxiety and depression I had begun experiencing (which I would only later come to realize was just an effect at the time of being empathic and energetically sensitive). I also started to practice meditation, yoga, and qigong. These practices began to open me up to the subtle energies of myself and of the Earth and the Cosmos, and for the first time I felt that I began to have a connection with God as I related to that lofty concept. I began to feel consciously connected to a life force and intelligence which I perceived to be permeating throughout the entire universe and everything around me.
Around this time, I began to experience various phenomena such as out of body experiences, precognitive dreams, lucid dreams that seemed more like actual autonomous dimensions, and a long string of synchronistic events and dreams related to ancient Egypt and the Goddess Bast, which included certain historical details pertaining to ancient Egypt of which I had no knowledge of prior to the dreams. Eventually I felt called to live in Hawaii for a time, and while there I experienced a more profound connection with the Earth and the Cosmos than ever before. Shortly after arriving and beginning to make my home in Hawaii, I had an experience of one of these eternal moments in which I became so powerfully absorbed by a love and reverence of creation so strong, that it literally brought me to my knees and compelled me to kiss the Earth. I was overcome by un-bounding love, compassion, honor, awe, humility, and the terror of this great force all at once. In that moment there was the knowing that the allness which was being so profoundly revealed in me was my Self, with no division or distinction inside or out. In this space, I experienced what I can only describe as the universe performing chiropractic adjustments on my body, independent of any physical volition of my own, and a surrendered merging of the inhale and exhale of my breathing as one seamless and uninterrupted breath, the love and power of the universe breathing me. During this time I also occasionally experienced a oneness so profound with my natural surroundings that on several occasions it seemed that the mental and emotional states I was experiencing were actually affecting the weather.
I've had a natural inclination towards exploring the depths and outer limits of my own awareness since childhood. From a very young age I began having vivid lucid dreams after I saw an episode of a ghost busters cartoon in which one of the characters in a scary dream remembered to say "it's just a dream! it's just a dream!" in order to gain control over whatever it was causing him fear. I began remembering to say "it's just a dream" any time something would be causing me problems in a dream, and then I would realize "hey, it really is just a dream!" and I would then proceed to travel through time and have super powers and fly and attempt to collect dream world treasures like video game consoles and candy to bring back into my waking life from these otherworldly dimensions. In retrospect I see this as being the beginning of my realizing that there was a deeper level of self-awareness that I could take a step back into beyond whatever was happening in my immediate experience.
As a young child I was very preoccupied with and disturbed by the fact that everyone would some day die. It seemed incredibly cruel and absurd to me that this be true. I have a vivid memory of walking to my school bus to go home after I had just begun kindergarten, and as I looked around me at all of my laughing, playing peers all I could think was "don't they know they're all gonna die?" As macabre as this sounds, I know it was this fixation upon my own mortality which caused me to become more present to my experiences. I used to regularly create markers in time using my awareness. I would bring as much of my presence of awareness that I possibly could to a specific moment, and in those moments I remember feeling that I could travel through time in either direction. I believe now that what was occurring was that by calling as much of my awareness as possible into a given point in time, I was at the same time letting go of my identification with time, and instead resting in an awareness of the eternal now. Later on in my life I read the book Be Here Now by Ram Dass, and reading this book propelled me into what many would term a spiritual quest. I began studying Tibetan Buddhism and Jungian Dream Work, and seeking a remedy to the anxiety and depression I had begun experiencing (which I would only later come to realize was just an effect at the time of being empathic and energetically sensitive). I also started to practice meditation, yoga, and qigong. These practices began to open me up to the subtle energies of myself and of the Earth and the Cosmos, and for the first time I felt that I began to have a connection with God as I related to that lofty concept. I began to feel consciously connected to a life force and intelligence which I perceived to be permeating throughout the entire universe and everything around me.
Around this time, I began to experience various phenomena such as out of body experiences, precognitive dreams, lucid dreams that seemed more like actual autonomous dimensions, and a long string of synchronistic events and dreams related to ancient Egypt and the Goddess Bast, which included certain historical details pertaining to ancient Egypt of which I had no knowledge of prior to the dreams. Eventually I felt called to live in Hawaii for a time, and while there I experienced a more profound connection with the Earth and the Cosmos than ever before. Shortly after arriving and beginning to make my home in Hawaii, I had an experience of one of these eternal moments in which I became so powerfully absorbed by a love and reverence of creation so strong, that it literally brought me to my knees and compelled me to kiss the Earth. I was overcome by un-bounding love, compassion, honor, awe, humility, and the terror of this great force all at once. In that moment there was the knowing that the allness which was being so profoundly revealed in me was my Self, with no division or distinction inside or out. In this space, I experienced what I can only describe as the universe performing chiropractic adjustments on my body, independent of any physical volition of my own, and a surrendered merging of the inhale and exhale of my breathing as one seamless and uninterrupted breath, the love and power of the universe breathing me. During this time I also occasionally experienced a oneness so profound with my natural surroundings that on several occasions it seemed that the mental and emotional states I was experiencing were actually affecting the weather.
As I continued to spiral and open to the All during my time there, I was eventually gifted a full-blown Kundalini Awakening. I won’t go into detail about it here except to say that the manner in which it proceeded was very challenging- to say the least. But, for better or worse it was an opening into a completely new way of being, knowing, and experiencing my Self and awareness, and now that the energy was flowing, there was little one could do but surrender to it’s guidance in order to remain sane and seize the opportunity of the transformation and expansion being facilitated within it's fiery grace. From that point forward, for many years, I lived in a state of extremely expanded awareness and sensitivity; in a constant state of mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual purging and transfiguration into the next and the next and the next levels of my awareness and being.
After years of living in this highly energized state of exalted awareness, another giant shift occurred within my being which forced me to begin exploring an entirely new order of my own cosmology. This time an expanding out beyond all limitations I held within myself -without even realizing it- turned the reference points of my awareness completely inside out and began establishing new vectors of perception within the strata of a Cosmic Self. For a period of time this was a very difficult transition. After a time of feeling incredibly lost and confused in this dark night of unknowing, I was fortunate enough to find some very wizened and wonderful (human) guides to help initiate me into this new arena of self awareness and possibility. The extensive work I have done with these partners in consciousness since that time is what has ultimately enabled me to become energetically configured in the manner which allows for these higher aspects of my being to facilitate this work and assist others to not have to journey alone through some of the more difficult and confusing passages that I myself have gone through.
After years of living in this highly energized state of exalted awareness, another giant shift occurred within my being which forced me to begin exploring an entirely new order of my own cosmology. This time an expanding out beyond all limitations I held within myself -without even realizing it- turned the reference points of my awareness completely inside out and began establishing new vectors of perception within the strata of a Cosmic Self. For a period of time this was a very difficult transition. After a time of feeling incredibly lost and confused in this dark night of unknowing, I was fortunate enough to find some very wizened and wonderful (human) guides to help initiate me into this new arena of self awareness and possibility. The extensive work I have done with these partners in consciousness since that time is what has ultimately enabled me to become energetically configured in the manner which allows for these higher aspects of my being to facilitate this work and assist others to not have to journey alone through some of the more difficult and confusing passages that I myself have gone through.
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